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Sotyi golpo bolte gele nijer jiibon theke golpo tene bar korte hoy athoba ashepasher lokjoner jiibon theke. Bethun-er tintolar koNar ghupchi classroomtay bose, Ad Block-er pechhoner sNiRite moshar kamoR khete khete, Starbucks-er dorja diye dhukei bNadiker sofa tay skinny cappuccino ar almond biscotti niye ghontar por ghonta katiye kom golpo jogaR korini ami.
Kintu se sob golpoi "ga chhNuye" konodin kauke na bolar protisrutir jailkhanay bondii. tokhon jodi jantam je ekdin amake dine raate abantorer pata bhoranor jonyo matha chulkote hobe, tahole kichhutei oi protisrutir phere poRtam na. In fact, ami bhabchhi jader golpo tader sobaike bcc kore ekta chithhii likhi je naam dham poribortito kore golpogulo lekha jabe kina. ei chhutoy jogajogtao jhaliye newa jabe.
Banano golpo bolar kkhomota bhogobaan amay diye pathanni.
Apni jodi etokkhoN monojog diye thaken, tahole bujhte parben je amar kachhe apatoto Haradhoner doshom sontanti holo, nijer jiibon theke golpo tene baar kora.
Amar boyosii ek mohilar jiibone (apni jodi monojog diye thaken, tahole amar boyos o apnar jana uchit) kon golpogulor uposthiti sobtheke beshi bolun dekhi?
Thik dhorechhen. biyer golpo. athoba biye na howar. amar kachhe duto byaparer moddhye khub je ekta tofat achhe ta noy, kintu dekhai jachchhe bakider kachhe serokomta noy.
Anek raag, dukkho, aghat, embarrassment, titibirokti ar gatrodaho-r bondhur poth periye ami ekhon sotyi i bishwas kori je onara sobai amar bhalo chan. jNara plate e khabar newa matro humRi kheye poRe protyekbar (ekdine tinbelao hote pare) amar khabarer porimaN niye montobyo korte chhaRen na, ebong jNara Rishra up platform theke chNechiye down platform-e dNaRiye thaka Kuntalake proshno pathan je kobe biye korchhis, tNader hitoishii bole chinte amar eddin bhul hochchhilo. ekhon ar hoyna.
Kintu tao amake tNader golpoi fNede boste hochchhe, karoN ami nirupay.
Jodio gender/age stereotype shobdogulo idaning ban kore dewa hoyechhe, tobu amake sotyer khatire boltei hochhe je biye songkranto ei akromoNer purobhage thaken jNara maa non, kintu maayer byosii. akromoN bibhinno rokom hote pare. mishti hese gaye haat buliye theke shuru kore kruddho konthhe, "kire biye kobe korbi? boyos to anek holo" porjonto. ami toRighoRi tNake santwona di je boyos hoyni bole biye korchhina, e bhrom ta amar ekebarei nei.
Biye keno korchhina, e proshner juktigrajhyo uttor khNujte prochur somoy kaajer theke dhar niye byay korechhi ami. amar ekhon ichhe korchhe na uttor ta chalanor cheshta kortam, jokhon boyos ar abhignota dui i kom chilo ebong etakei sohoj sotyi mone kortam. poriNoti ja howar tai hoyechhe, somobeto attohasyo chhaRa e swiikaroktir kopale ar kichhui jote ni. amar kauke pochhondo hochchhena bole dekhechhi, amar samnei proshnokorta raage kNapte thaken. amar ghoter goborgulo jodi sob shukiye ghNute na hoye jeto tahole ami bujhte partam je prithibiite kaukei abimishro bhalo lagena. maniye guchhiye cholte hoy. ar aporpokkher je amake pochhondo hobe tar guarantee ki? ami ki janina je ami mota ar bNete ar amar gaayer rong ujjwol shyamborNo bole chalate geleo kolponashoktir opor chap poRe? ar sobtheke boRo kotha hochhe, amar anek boyos?? sesob ki amar kheyal achhe???
Bishwas korun achhe. seijonyo i to ami nijeke arekjon nipat bhalomanush loker ghaRe chapate chaichhi na. amar sejonyo dhonyobad i prapyo. kintu sekotha keu bujhle to.
Tai bhebechhi ebar biye korchhis na keno jante chaile koruN mukh kore bolbo, ami to khub i chai, keu amake biye korte chaichhe na, ami ki korbo bolun? emon durbhagye pashaN o gole, hitoishiira to golben guarantee. ar ami je etodine jhuli theke asol beRalta bar korlam tateo tNader hridoy aardro hobe nirghat. bechara. sotyi, ki ar kora jabe, sobar kopale to sob sukh lekha thakena.
Ei sob bhebetebe tNara jokhon mon bhari kore nijeder rasta dhorben, ami tokhon hNap chheRe ghore phire ceiling-paane cheye bhabbo next post-e abar ki baje golper abotaroNa kora jete pare.
Emni korei din kete jabe arki.

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  1. reactions:

    amar ma'r- khub bhalo koreche biye koreni. bhalo chele pochondo na hole ekdom biye kora uchit na.(ami 32 ta dNaat baar kore haslam)

    amar room mate (je tomar boyoshi)- "aha re"

    ami- emni kore din kaatle khub bhalo hoy. bor hole extra ranna, extra bashon, extra kapoR jama, extra suitcase, extra mathabyatha.

    sudhu laabh er moddhyey tumi abantor er jonno hoyto ar o golpo pete paro, tao jodi she raji hoy. tar chene tumi bcc mail ta pathiyei dao...

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  2. Apni kintu bhishon bipajjanok pothe pa baRachchhen - "Amay keu biye korchhena" shune jodi oi matristhaniya ra ghotkali korte bosen (seta hobar sambhabona probol) tahole kintu apni ulto fNade poRben.

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  3. Ami Sugatar sathey ekmot! it really is a dangerous path to tread. Tumi to door e thako, roj tomar bari jaben notun notun cheler prostab niye! hehehe. which probably isn't too bad an idea on second thoughts. Sari kenar moton cheleder bio-data ghata is quite an amusing thing. I remember sunday newspaper e patri chai section ta besh interesting lagto. ;)

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  4. hnya, patro patri chai column ta kokhonoi khorak jogate byartho hoy na. ar tomader kotha shune ektu chintai hochhe.....plan ta bodlate hobe mone hochchhe :(

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  5. Ore baba, oiti koro na, amar moton onek hitoishi lok jon ache, BengaliMatrimony dekhe tomar pasher lab er chele jogar kore felbe.

    Kichu bochor age jokhon amar haat e prochur shomoy ar blog chilo na ami ek ti gota maash ojana lok er jonyo Bharat Matrimony dekhtam. Bhagyish !!!

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  6. bhagyis apnar haate ekhon somoy nei bong mom....

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